I wrote this blog the morning I was to drive up to the alzheimers research center at the university of texas southwestern in dallas
I knew I was through
I did not discuss this with anyone but my wife she
there were a few people I think who knew that I was through
they could sense it
I must say it was a long drive up to dallas that day
we always stopped at the west kolache shop for a kolache on the way
it was our halfway point
I did a lot of soul searching on the way up to dallas
I knew what was going to happen
I knew what I needed to do
12-23-2010
THE DREADED DOCTOR VISIT yesterday i said goodbye to my job as a practicing family physician
im leaving not because i want to but because genetics has
bit me in the ass
no one knows yet that yesterday was my last day
not my nurse, not my patients, not my fellow partners, not
the administration
no one got to say good bye to me
thats the way i wanted it
today i meet with a neurologist to review my neuro-
psychological testing that was done so that i can enter
studies in the university of texas alzheimers research studies
i entered this to be a control subject in their study
a control subject is someone who does not have a disease
who is followed along with patients who have the disease
it looks like i might be a subject now
not a control subject
i knew when i went there originally that i had noticed some
subtle changes
no one else had noticed these changes but i had
not even my wife she has noticed any changes
if you know me or met me you would not notice anything
(except i couldnt remember your name
a long problem i have had for 30 years)
it appears that those subtle changes are present and those
changes will probably make me not want to work anymore
as they could interfere with my ability to practice medicine
I wonder if and when my mom noticed these changes
how long before we noticed her symptoms did this happen
to her
what about my close relative who was working
did he notice these changes months to years before
others noticed them
when did his wife notice them
when did they begin to interfere with his work
next the follow up to the neurology visit
the organicgreen doctor
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