a breath of fresh air

A BREATH OF FRESH AIR
when i wake up in the morning i usually open up our
downstairs doors all four of them
to let in fresh air
to use the outside cool night air
remember its 3am when i get up every morning
thanks to mr aricept (donepezil) i take since i may
have alzheimers disease

letting in that cool night air for several hours allows the
inside of the house to get a good exchange of stale
inside air with this cool night air

then the sun comes up and we have to reverse things
usually about 1200 pm we close things back up
for another 15 hours of that inside air
then good country air to be let in at 3am again

this am when i got up though it was 80+ degrees
stale
humid
almost suffocating
if youve lived in the deep south you know what im talking
almost syrupy is how it feels when you breathe it in
so i left the doors closed and turned on the air conditioner

this am i had a meeting with a group doing a seminar
on caregiving
where a caregiver and i will be doing two 45 minute seminars
on caregiving and how not to get burned out
doing a question and answer is what we plan to do
she a caregiver now with her alzheimers husband
and
me a doctor who has cared for those patients
a family member whose mom dad and brother had the disease
and
now me who may have the disease
three perspectives i offer
and how to be a long distance caregiver
which is easier to do yet harder also

when i was driving to the meeting my air conditioner would
hardly work in the car
i got out and felt the heat and humidity
fogging up my glasses is what happened

i had my meeting then home i went
ate lunch
then lay down for my normal afternoon nap hoping to
gain back my two hours of sleep that the aricept sucked
from me

after about an hour
i heard thunder
then the hail hit the roof
now our roof is an all metal roof
so when hail hits its  loud
i mean real loud
the rain was also hard real hard
then it slowed to that nice pleasant
relaxing rain on that metal roof
that sort of slowly rocked me back to sleep
for another 1 and a half hour more

i felt so refreshed when i awoke
i think it was that mesmerizing lullaby that that metal roof and
that slow rain sung on our roof

then my wife she heard i was awake
she who i think may have hid in our storm shelter shower
opened up the house like i do every morning

in rushed this breath of fresh air
that crispy smell good rainy fresh air
that you can only get after a good hail storm
and after the rain has fallen to cool the outside down

now i sit on our upper deck writing this blog
its after 500pm our wine time
listening to it still raining on our metal roof
it seems it has activated all the animals the birds are
active like they are in the morning

even the deer have come out into our far pasture
a mom and her twin fawns moving across the pasture
the fawns ajumping and playing in the slow rain

so i take a slow deep breath that feels so good going down
a sip of wine
and
say thanks for this change
from what would have been a miserable day here at the country n

it makes me contemplate a lot sitting here
especially after having spent 2 hours talking about alzheimers disease
and what memories and thoughts that brings up

i am just thankful that im alive and able to enjoy this moment
seized the moment it is what i did

ehh ehh ehh ehh phew phew phew phew

the organicgreen doctor